Sunday, January 29, 2006

sometimes i think she gets lonely sometimes. i mean, surely she does, going to an empty house everynight after work. yeah she has her family, brothers and sisters, childhood friends and long forged friendship-knot bonds but like seeds in a pod, they scatter when the wind of adulthood blows. shes left alone on concrete ground. as michelle phiffer once memorably said to an empty apartment in catwoman "honey, i'm home! oh, i forgot, i'm not married." she must get lonely sometimes.
BUT it's not too late. she could meet someone.. like, middleaged people still have sex right? she could meet someone still and have mindblowing sex right? hahah. if only love lasts forever! either that or we'd better break out our superhero costumes. Auntie by day, the DARK PANTHER by night. Meow!!!

Posted by Dominic at 3:50 AM

Saturday, January 28, 2006

it isnt scaring as well as i hoped, ahh well, the scars maketh the man. a friend brought some video games over for my ps2. thanks man. god of war really rocks. cant go clubbing either. it'll be really funny to go to a club in crutches. another friend came over unexpected. came over to tell me the good news that he 'finally' decided to go to new south wales university. he has to do a 1 and half year foundation course though. thats in sydney? ahh good for him. he doesnt have to travel then to see the sydney mardi gras. whats it like in sydney? whats it like in melbourne for that matter. in 15 hrs time gonna have family reunion. look forward to it! not sure if all of us will be around for the next one. :( and i dont know if i will be. and i dont know if he will be. or he. or she. AHHHHHHHHH!!!! the future is imminent.

whats the army like now that we've all ord or about to? poet cyril wong said "the army was a complete waste of his time. you can quote me on that" i think one year would have sufficed. bmt, signal school, orientation and operations/events in the bomb unit. the second year was just a giant countdown screen towards the ord date. you get more upbeat. the regulars leave you alone. you talk like friends to your warrant officers. you hang around the vending machine talking cock, making jokes. being silly. getting to know people, asking bout what they're gonna do when they ord.. making connections. learning from people. bout universities, lifestyles, etc. talking more cock. it didnt matter if you were a sargeant or an enlistee, everyone was equal. if you're an asshole you're an asshole.. being higher ranked doesnt exempt you from judgment. it was just your job scope thats different, in my unit at least, people were talking if they were gonna go to brown university, william's college or michigan instead.. whats your next step? work? the army's just one big game. like some dungeon master assigning us our tasks. and we go about playing it. at least it was meaningful to go about dealing with real bombs and terrorist threats and get to see big events like the ioc and ndp, sunami memorial etc. bringing our dogs to sniff for explosives. what if i ended up in a place where all you do is clean your bunks and "pretend war" and go chiong into the forest? or be regimental police and open gate for people. for 2 years!?! shudder. was it a complete waste of time? no. it probably made me a better guy. i guess the rest of the guys could say the same. i got my upgrade, thankfully.. and ferlin said he couldn't imagine me in the army. hmm. you just learn to fit in babe.

Posted by Dominic at 3:08 AM

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

one huge tub of tiramisu ice cream from haagendaz. an orgasm with every bite. i am now pretty spent.

Posted by Dominic at 2:20 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

omg, this is so freakin funny!!!!! i laugh until stomachache. check out those dance moves.
http://www.youtube.com/w/korean-madness?v=9oCTkwpSgnY&feature=Views&page=1&t=a&f=b

Posted by Dominic at 4:49 AM

the previous post was a song by Bell x1, called Eve, the apple of my eye. Heard the song on my computer. jane must have downloaded it into the comp. it's so funny, she worked a week at the lingerie department at Isetan city hall and got herself an ivideo. hahaha/ i guess every thing's an experience. i still remember the time in my first year when i had to wait tables for 3 mths before i could go on my trip to vancouver with a classmate. the first week was so freakin hard.. train rides home were spent in silence, contemplating the day's work. having the stamina is one thing.. waiting tables to and fro for 8 hours straight in a downtown cafe is another. seriously man. and i guess she isnt waiting tables but the experience is good for her.

the day went by rather nicely, if unamazing ;) i really shouldnt be moving but i lost count how many times i climbed the starts up and down doing little things. read, cleaned up my room, putting old notes from into bags.. sweeping and cleaning, surfing a few sites about melboune uni. i got the letter of offer. i guess i'm really doing it. Flickr.com and blogger search is like so amazing. then in the afternoon, for the first time in my 23 years, heard my dad lecture me in chinese. it went something like this..

"yi ge fan nao hui dai lai duo yi ge fan nao, and then ni xiang ze ge fan nao you(4) you(3) duo yi ge fan nao. zui hao she bu yao you fan nao, bu yao xiang, then you can concentrate on your goals" i kid you not. word for word. it was so funny. i tried not to laugh, so i hid my face behind the palm of one hand. he was serious on imparting his message.

anyway, he came to talking about life and the responsibility of a dad.. and then i came to think, so whats life gonna be for me..i mean i definately dont want to grow old alone.. so what happens then? i have 3 aunts, unmarried. i probably have to take care of em when i get old. i want to be surrounded by loved ones. dink (dual income no kids) for how long? i definately want kids... maybe a girl. i dont know. i have this book on gay parenting called 'families of value' i bought like a year ago. (whats a 22 year old boy doing with a book on parenting? my 'alternative literature' library is getting quite large :)) anyway cliche title aside, it's about and i quote 'portraying the resistance these brave parents have faced, their views on the current cultural climate and, most importantly, the intense passion and dedication that they have demonstrated in the course of raising sound, healthy and well-adjusted children.' think of it maybe, if you will, as single parenting with twice the love. theres a story in there about a Yale student (gush) (i heard nus's teaming up with Yale and Berkeley to provide NUS students to study there) whos also the captain of his hockey team who came from lesbian parents.. he came out on national tv saying how grateful and proud he was of his parents. anyway gays make really good parents too, case closed, dont let the traditionalists tell you otherwise..

Posted by Dominic at 2:36 AM

Monday, January 23, 2006

Now this applies both equally to you and I

The only thing we share Is the same sky

These empty metaphors

They're all in vain

Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

And I lie behind you

And a cradle you in the palm of me

And I pat your hair down

I think will we sink or swim?

'Cause we could do either on a whim

Posted by Dominic at 1:20 AM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

http://macworld.apple.com.edgesuite.net/mw/index.html
See what the religious leader has in store for 2006.

Posted by Dominic at 3:53 AM

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear

not fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)

i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

....e. e. cummings

I just had to put this in here.

Posted by Dominic at 3:23 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

so love doesnt make sense. and if you're in love, and i were to ask you why you're in love, 9 out of 10 times you can't put a finger on why you feel this way. provided its true love. and i guess when you fall out of it, thats when you're forced to be rational. some people are never rational for most of their lives. they spent it being drunk. in love or otherwise alcohol. being in love isnt sexy. being aloof is.

i am capable of neither being aloof nor rational. i'm pretty much fucked.

Posted by Dominic at 2:29 AM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

i've so much to be thankful for when i think about it.

going for my operation tomorrow. i'm APPREHENSIVE MAN! i'm not scared scared.. theres nothing to be afraid of.. but the thought of them cutting my leg again.. heartbreaking.

Posted by Dominic at 1:06 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006

a friend of mine was talking bout racism (we're singaporeans man. it's like a boiling pot here. like NY city, get over it) and then he showed me a blog by this girl called xiaxue. i gathered she's famous. i can guess why. but she's so bimbotic. i shouldnt bother, but i feel like frodo, going against the odds of the blog reading singaporean community with only Stinger while str guys all around succumb to her sauron-like, pervading stupidity. ("why can't i use toilets for handicaps? take a number cripple sir, your toilet's more spacious")

her post was on foreign workers molesting girls in orchard road. i don't know if they did. if they did, i encourage her to report them to the police. hmm but she didnt. shrug. anyway, here's what she posted.

Modelling agencies do not employ the ugly (superifical); Mensa does not welcome people with low IQ (elitism), Platinum card owners do not allow the poor to join their ranks (elitism), SIA does not employ short girls (don't know what this is called) but Ikea alone is wrong in not employing blacks in France to do deliveries?

Is it really ok to discriminate these other things and not race?

Food for thought.

Race is just one more thing we pass judgements on, and it is natural to like or dislike certain races more, based on a board generalisation of what you think of each race. You certainly cannot help it.

er.. yes you can.

lol. what a gem huh? you guys get what she's saying? i'll translate. "I'm too ugly to model, too stupid to join mensa, too poor to have a platinum card, and too short to join SIA. if i get discriminated like that, why can't i discriminate against race? think about it" hahah! she's funny.

Firstly honey, those arn't discrimination anyway. but are meritocratic meaning anyone can get them if they try hard enough. but race! or gender and sexuality for that matter is another matter altogether... cause you cant really change those can you? you can't change those, you're just born with it (er, no, michael, you dont count) so it's just wrong to put someone down or "pass judgments" because of it.

someone throw her into mount doom before she torches the shire.

Posted by Dominic at 7:01 PM

Thursday, January 05, 2006

ahhh. so that's love. or infatuation. it makes your heart smile. if there were ever a phrase to describe it. sometimes your heart beat a little faster on your chest. thump thump thump. it feels warm in the center. and the more you think about it, the harder your heart beats with warmth. warmth and excitement and concern. thump thump thump. and thoughts I make aside make me smile. :D a crush.

Posted by Dominic at 10:53 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady, you know who I am,
You know I can't let you slide through my hands

I watched you suffer a dull, aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
No sweeping exits or offstage lines,
Can make me feel bitter or treat you unkind

Wild Horses; Rolling Stones